Thoughts
In September 2002, on the final day of a submission deadline, I stumbled upon an intriguing request from an organisation's website. They invited people worldwide to write an email letter of their choice and send it to them. The company's plan was to launch the collected letters into space in various formats. At that time, the email concept was still gaining traction in India, and I found the request thrilling. Inspired, I penned a few lines and sent the email. Unfortunately, I failed to note the website's details or save the letter in my sent box for future reference. As a result, I'm unable to provide the website's information now. However, I've retained a hard copy of my letter, which I'd like to share here.
The letter I wrote was during a time when I was separated from my family, and I was unhappy with my work posting and the timing. As a result, the contents of the letter may reflect a somber and melancholic tone. I believe that when asked to write something, people often draw from their current experiences and emotions. I was no exception in 2002. Please note that the letter may contain some errors in language usage, and I apologise for any mistakes that may appear.
CONTENTS OF LETTER
I am suresh and my age is 44. I am happily married 2 1 gayathri. My daughters are cute and are now going 2 college. I don't like my employers as they are partial and very much deceitful in nature. Hence I don't wish to say anything about my office life.
I am staying alone in Mumbai, a port town in India which is situated in Asia. My family is staying about 1200 kms away and I am very much worried about them as there is some sentimental attachment. I don't know who has given these sentiments in our brain. The more we know the more we get worried or confused.
Life is made such that one has to go to disturb others' peace of mind in order to get some peace to himself/herself, according to him/her. In fact he is wrong and he has to agree to it. But yet his conscious doesn't win over the guilty-conscious. Finally he will yield to bad thinking and once again finally he does bad things only. But alas! what he is going to achieve by doing such unwanted or rather unwarranted things even when his guilty-conscious had pricked him earlier.
Life is definitely short. But to a person who doesn't have money, that is to say a poor guy even an hour looks to be very long. I am of the opinion that within the lifetime of any one's life he has to do something which satisfies his own mind. Unfortunately again people do a lot of things and pretend to do a lot of help or assistance just to get a pat from others or get noticed in public life. Here again his sub-consciousness, not permitting to do such jobs, wishes to win over his own sub-consciousness through the media of guilty-consciousness.
Learn to love everybody. Never be jealous of others who are better than you. Accept reality. Do good hard work. Never mind not doing good to others, at least know your responsibilities and never think of doing any harm. Follow quintessence-full life without greed or enmity.
With love, affection and best wishes,
Yours sincerely,
suresh hulikunti rao 19.09.2002
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